INVICTUS

I am master of my fate, I am captain of my soul (from a poem by William Ernest Hendley)
There is no chance, no destiny, no fate, that can circumvent or hinder or control the firm resolve of a determined soul ( quote by Ella Wheeler Wilcox)

Tuesday 24 December 2019

My Self Portrait 1

This is another list 😄. Characters in novels, fairy tales and films that have really stayed with me. These characters are strong, even if some of them are abused and they go through exploitation and oppression but they rise up at the end. Well, life is about making choices!

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Eeyore from Winnie The Pooh books

And here they are................

  1. The donkey Eeyore in the Winnie-the-Pooh children books by A. A. Milne. He is generally characterized as a pessimistic, gloomy, depressed, anhedonic, old grey donkey who is a friend of the title character, Winnie-the-Pooh. The fact that it is always slow, gloomy and depressed strikes a chord with me, especially during my tumultuous young adult life and later on when I was struggling with severe depression. I have always considered conquering the depression as the greatest achievement in my life. (Anhedonia: Loss of the capacity to experience pleasure. The inability to gain pleasure from normally pleasurable experiences. Anhedonia is a core clinical feature of depression, schizophrenia, and some other mental illnesses.)
  2. The character Andrew Beckett played by Tom Hanks in the 1993 movie Philadelphia. Hanks played a senior lawyer in a large law firm in Philadelphia. In the movie Beckett is gay and is strickened with AIDS. He however has a very loving and supportive family. Hank won an Academy Award for Best Actor for his role in the film. Is a sad and touching movie loosely based on real events. 
  3. Karen Blixen played by Meryl Streep in the 1985 movie Out of Africa. The depiction of a strong woman.
  4. The character Francesca Johnson played by Meryl Streep in the 1995 movie The Bridges of Madison County. Here Streep plays the part of a housewife who has a short affair with a National Geographic photographer. She almost leave her husband but in the end decided against it at the last minute.  
  5. Gadis Pantai (The Girl From The Coast) in the novel with the same name by Pramoedya Ananta Toer. In the novel this girl is never named and is always referred to as Gadis Pantai. The central character of The Girl from the Coast was based on Pramoedya’s grandmother. This girl, lives with her parents in a fishing village on the coast of Java. When she is fourteen, word of her beauty reaches the local bendoro, a Javanese aristocrat in the service of the Dutch colonial overlords. The nobleman sends word to her family that she is to become his wife. Filled with hope for their daughter’s future, her mother and father agree to have her married in a ceremony in which the groom is absent and is represented by a dagger. The parents accompany their child to the great man’s house in the city. There, they find a disturbing omen of their daughter’s future. A servant is caring for a baby, the child of a previous wife who had been divorced and dismissed at the bendoro’s whim. Even reading this book at a young age, I find the bendoro's attitude towards women totally disgusting. 
  6. Jean Louise Finch or Scout Finch. The narrator and protagonist of the book To Kill A Mockingbird by Harper Lee. Scout is about six at the beginning of the novel. She is a tomboy and is a very intelligent child. She is advanced in her reading capacity even before she goes to school. She lives in Maycomb with her father Atticus, her brother Jem and their black housekeeper Calpurnia.
  7. The servant girl Lin in the 1964 Malay movie Rumah Itu Dunia Aku based on the novel of the same name by Hamzah Hussin. The character was played by the beautiful and gentle actress Latifah Omar. It's about a young girl who is a servant in a wealthy household. 
  8. The character Poniem in the novel Merantau Ke Deli by Hamka. Poniem is a beautiful and hard-working woman of Javanese descent who falls in love and marries Leman who is of Minang descent. This is a story about the social issue of marriage between different ethnic groups, each with very strong ties to "adat" or custom. Poniem is oppressed by Leman when he takes a second wife of his own ethnic group. Later on he divorced her. I wrote a post in BM about this novel dated 23 Nov. 2016.


To be continued.................



Monday 23 December 2019

Holding Up The Universe





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Just finished this book by Jennifer Niven. It's a young-adult novel. As I've said before, I tend to like young-adult book, because I feel young adulthood is a challenging time for most people. It's the time you feel like you're not a kid anymore but neither are you an adult. You're still dependent on your parents and you really feel like you want to be independent. You're eager to complete your education and you want to support yourself on your own ASAP. Well, that was the way for me then. Anyway, let's go to the book.

The story is alternatively narrated by Libby Strout and Jack Messelin. Previously Libby was morbidly obese and was once dubbed America's fattest teen weighing 653 lbs at age 13. When she fell ill, she had to be removed from her house by a crane and the house had to be cut open to let her out. At the beginning of the book Libby is sixteen, had lost 302 lbs, now weighing about 250 lbs.and is starting high school at Martin Van Buren somewhere in the states.

Libby lost her mum to heart disease very suddenly when she was ten.


About Bereavement





This is a very compelling book. It managed to make me finished quite a number of pages while having coffee at Starbucks. It's about bereavement. A rather morbid topic but nonetheless a part of life. We lose our loved ones every now and then and one day we too will depart this world leaving our loved ones.

Natural disaster of gargantuan scale like that of Boxing Day of 2004 tsunami and the March 11th 2011 eastern Japan tsunami no doubt left a mark on us, even if we were not directly affected  in the sense that we did not lose any friends or family members. Images after images of death and destruction were very painful to watch.

To be frank, I don't think I have really grieved for anyone. I missed my late mum very much, yes, but I don't think that I was grieving for her. Because I was adopted by my aunt and was not brought up by my biological parents, I wasn't particularly close to my mum and my dad. Nowadays, I believe that mum and dad are in a good place, a happy place, a place of overwhelming peace, love and compassion. I believe that they are still watching over us, their children.